Daddys Issues

Regardless of one's private situation, all new parents experience an overwhelming range of emotions . Personally I felt  love. I felt  pride. I felt like i was on top of the world. Yet at the same time i also felt volnurable, scared, Incapable. Do i even know how to be a parent?! And this was just during the first week ;)

 The past few years have presented me with various challenges that tested my strength and resilience. One of the biggest challenges came right after my daughter was born - she became seriously ill and it was a terrifying experience. After she recovered and came home, my world was turned upside down once again when my dad was diagnosed with leukemia. Coping with his illness, along with other personal issues that I'll discuss in my blog, put a lot of strain on my marriage, which ultimately ended in divorce. And if that wasn't enough, my dad passed away the same week we finalized the divorce. It was a difficult time, but I learned a lot about myself and how to navigate through adversity. 

What I truly missed during these moments was a blog like this. A blog where I could maybe find some answers. A place where I could find some form of confirmation, someone telling me that I was not the only one that felt like this. That I was not the only one struggling and didn't always know how to deal with it.

So with this blog, I hope to help others. Help the person I used to be and at times still am. I want to share my story as honest as possible. It will not always be a beautiful story, nor will it be perfect, but I guess that's life. I will tell you all my stories, what happened, what I did, how I dealt with it, and what I have learned from it.

But most importantly, I want to show that at moments when you might think you are the only one going through hell, you don't know what to do anymore, or you are scared, scared that you are the most terrible parent ever! That you are not alone! We all have these moments! It's just that we aren't always that brave to admit it or ask for help!"